Jason —

Today you would have been 32. i miss you so much.  there really isn’t a day that goes by that i don’t want to call you; wonder what your reaction would be to XYZ situation in my life.

i’ve changed a lot since we last talked.  Progressed on topics that you thought i was rock-solid on.  time and experience changes a lot.  even though i said i would be the same forever.  you would get a good last laugh at some stuff that’s gone down in the last year; and yes, “i told you so.” you said it first. i know. you were right. the concept of, “you want what you can’t have” is true, and i want you to know that you’re right. Gosh, at 17 you were right.

i miss you. i’m glad that you really “saw” me at 16. you saw exactly who i was and all that i want to be, all that i am, all that i can be  … at 16.  i didn’t know as much about myself now as you knew about me then.

you will always be a sweet, sweet, beautiful memory for me and for my family. you knew that you had me, always. you had my family … even my brothers.

i miss you every day. i miss you every Thanksgiving. I miss you every time we gather around the dining room table.

i love you. you are the only person that i fully believed i have ever loved (outside my family). i hope you and Jesus are rocking it upstairs.

Love,

L